Posted in Growing in Grace, Mentally Speaking

When Our Heart Condemns Us…

This morning before I got out of bed, I reached for my Bible; I read the whole book of 1st John.

Yep, that’s right – five whole chapters and I did it without coffee.

What a great book.

I especially liked the part where it says, “For if our heart condemns us, God is greater than our heart and knows all things.” 1 John 3:20

My heart has condemned me for so many things and has kept me in bondage over things I can never change. I wish I had done things differently, but I didn’t, and nothing I can do will ever change the past or my actions.

God was so good to share this verse with me; in particular on this morning.

As my day started, I had to prepare to go have [yet another] MRI of my brain done with/without contrast. Meaning I would be trapped inside a machine for the better part of an hour to an hour and a half. Nothing to read, nothing to watch, nothing to listen to [other than the loud banging of the machine].

An hour of laying absolutely still and… me and my thoughts. Not a good combo.

I am grateful to God for preparing me for what could have been an incredibly deflating moment for me. Lying there the thoughts and images peeked out to begin their assault, I could feel my heart grip, but immediately I heard, “God is Greater!” then all was quiet. Two or three times thoughts or images tried to slip by, but God’s words came to my rescue. God is greater. I began to slip into a sense of peace so much so that the attendant thought I was sleeping. Ha!

I love God. He is my hero. My knight in shining armor. He always comes to my rescue, (especially when I let Him). 🙂

Now I know that God is greater than the pain of what has been in my heart concerning those things I did and can never change; therefore, I have a defense against the accuser now when he tries to hold me hostage over past regrets.


Thanks be to God, my Father, who is greater!



Posted in Life in My Lane

Pastor Bob Phillips

This week the world suffered a significant loss. Pastor Bob Phillips left us and went home. I can’t even tell of how great this man was to me or how instrumental he was in my life. I met him when my entire world and all that was in it had basically shattered.

He was the first person in my life ever to say he was proud of me, and to this day, I don’t know what made him say that. But as he walked away that day, I felt something shift within me.

Various times, during the early days of this new path God had me on, I would cry out to God in my secret chambers, longing for His hand. God would speak to Pastor Bob concerning those very issues. Pastor Bob would call me [out]; praying with a true father’s heart over me and speaking boldness and blessings into my life.

Some may not agree with this… but I know if it had not been for Pastor Bob being focused and obedient to the heart of God, I would not be here today (alive). If you disagree with that thought, that’s okay. However, this is what I believe.

Pastor Bob will always be who he was to me, a true father figure who made me feel that for the first time in my life someone actually cared about me. I’m glad he is home, not in physical pain anymore. My heart is sad, but my spirit is soaring for him.

Please keep Sherry and the rest of his family in prayer.

PS – I have visions of Pastor Bob and David Wilkerson being back together cruising down the boulevards of Heaven in an open convertible

Notes or cards through the mail:
The Phillips family
C/O Heartland Church
PO Box 1024
Ankeny, Iowa 50021